Healthy eating · life changes

Slow and steady …………….

Well how’s everyone doing ??

Since I last blogged I’ve had 2 good weigh ins and lost a totally of 5 1/2lb I was so pleased but this was followed with a gain of 2lb :-(. I expected that result to set me back but as I’m still overflowing with determination and motivation I’ve stuck to the plan more than ever. I’m putting my gain down to working 5 12hr shifts in 6 days and I struggled to stay focused on food preparation and being tired willpower was at a low ebb and of course there was the day off in between which involved 2 takeaway’s :-/ Even though I chose wisely :-/ with the food items i obviously went overboard with the hot chocolate drink.

The gain has put me under pressure and reignited my determination, due to weighing in Wednesday instead of the Monday as usual this means i have less time to try and pull back the weight loss so i’ll just do my very best.

just 2 of my meals this week

As for my mood its been good obviously being preoccupied with work and loving it then the slimming world stuff on my days off I’ve had very little time to think too much. Today is the beginning of a weeks annual leave so i’m filling in my schedule so as to keep busy and productive which in turn stabilises my mood.

My TO DO list includes ….

Sewing – Blankets, doggie bandana’s, peg bags and a Christmas stocking or 2

Admin stuff – I have a huge pile of filing to do, I also want to organise some sort of payment log for my bills

Decorating – This will be mainly motivating hubbs to do some 🙂

Gardening – Need to clear my hanging baskets and a few tubs away, weather permitting I would like to jet wash the paths before winter really sets in as they can get really slippy in some places.

General House chores – Due to work I’ve got a bit behind and have a huge pile of ironing (which I hate to confess I actually enjoy doing)

Would also like to catch up with friends and family, sadly only managed to get one visit with my gorgeous Ruby Rose (granddaughter) during her visit home this week so will make sure I get more time with her when she visits next time. Will be spending time with my daughter helping rearrange her flat so when her little family returns they have a more space.

Oh and I will try and breath at some point lol

Returning to the world of work after a very long time as an at home mum, I have come to treasure my time off and like to make the most of any time I get in the most productive way I can.

So heres to a busy productive week off 🙂

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Healthy eating

New week …. (part 1)

As I wrote in my last blog …. I’ve been struggling a bit with my ‘mood’ and feeling down enough to begin to worry. So after accepting that I’d failed the No alcohol challenge for the month of October .. I set myself another challenge and that was to set my mood around from going down to looking up and forward.

Knowing my moods and how to manage them I knew I would have to keep busy, setting myself a timetable for the week. In the beginning I did fill each hour with something to do or achieve, I’m an awful thinker and often with too much time on my hands that can get me into trouble in more ways than I care to comment. What follows is a brief outline of how I started my week.

Monday : Up, dressed and bed made by 9am (keeping a set routine and times helps me stay focussed)
10.00 Shopping and attempted to get flu jab (but wrong pharmacist in :-/)
11.30 Joined Slimming world for the 3rd and last time
13.30 Meet up with daughter drove her to an appointment and caught up with life on the way
16.00 Home and had planned to do some training stuff for work but sadly was not focussed enough for
that so late in the day but did do some recipe research and meal planning
Mood out of 10 = 8

turned out to be the wrong venue for SW

Tuesday : Work

Wednesday : Up early to see hubbs off to do his CBT (motorbike test thing) so was up dressed and bed made by 8am
8.00 Made a start on household chores sorting out washing and ironing.
9.00 Started cooking meals for the next few days. Made a butternut squash and sweet potato soup
this simmered away in the slow cooker nearly all day and then did Easy Tuna and pasta
which made 4 portions, 2 I put in the fridge and 2 in the freezer.
10.30 I made a start on cleaning up the kitchen, front room and washing down the garden.
12.30 Lunch and social media catch up
13.30 Upstairs clean up finished by 15.00 so chilled for an hour
16.00 Jumped in the shower and got ready to meet up with my 2 sisters and mum for a meal and
evening at the theatre
mood out of 10 = 9

Watched ”The Motown story”

Thursday : 8.00 Up and awake to enjoy breakfast with hubbs before he went off to work but felt quite
lethargic and unmotivated which then lead to just sitting around in my pj’s watching
nothing particular on TV and surfing the internet.
12.30 Lunch
13.30 Finally got showered and dress :-/ and probably would have done that if I hadn’t need to
go to the shops
14.00 Called in at work before doing a very quick shop.
Mood out of 10 = 5

Slightly spicy soup

Now already I can see I’m beginning to stray and that’s why I felt the need to blog …just to get my focus and motivation back so apologies for what probably reads as a very boring few days but that’s ME 🙂

Black days · Healthy eating · keep fit

True confessions ………

Ok Ok …..I confess I failed my personal challenge of no booze for October … the Stoptober challenge.

Its been at the back of my mind …niggling at me and slowly crawling to the front when all I’ve done is think about it … failing … and when I let it in all the other things I’ve failed at come flooding into my thoughts. At the risk then of disappearing into a slump of depression …I have got to fight it.

How ?? What can I do ??

Well for me … I keep busy, occupying my mind with good stuff so not to let my failings pull me down.

So this Saturday night with a glass of prosecco (sorry) I’m planning what to do this coming week. 3 days next week are easy as I’m working, doing 12hr shifts gives you little time to think of anything else during that day. The rest of the week I will plan a mix of chores, pleasurable projects and some meet ups with family, this will be done hour by hour fitting in meal times and setting alarms and bed times etc. If there’s one thing I have learnt when handling my depression its that I need routine.

I will include creative projects such as time outside in my garden or a sewing session, there’s nothing better at the end of the day and seeing something that you have achieved or produced. As well as those boring household chores to keep up to date with like washing ironing dusting vacuuming the list is endless when you think about it. We are in the middle of decorating both the kitchen and living room so I can do stuff towards completing that. Hoping to get it all done by Christmas 🙂

A couple of meet ups with family have already been arranged which is great as it also gives me something to look forward too. Very excited about Wednesday evening as I’m meeting up with my 2 sisters and mum for a meal and then going on to the theatre to watch ”The Motown story’. Yep this will include eating something not good but i’m hoping with wise choices and accounting for it the rest of the week that the damage will be minimal. Also got an afternoon planned with my daughter well actually I’m playing taxi but that’s fine I might get a coffee out of it too.

Something else I need to do is start feeling healthier and better about myself so I’m going to bite the bullet and for the 3rd time enrol with slimming world …. yes I know what I shouldn’t be eating and what I should, but there’s something about the weigh in that makes you stick to plan. Meal planning, preparation and shopping, will have to be taken into account too, cooking up some meals for work when on my days off.

So ok I may have failed Stoptober but sometimes you have to fail something …. to then get up from it. I may even come back better than I would have done.

Lastly to all those that pledged to give up something for Stoptober ..well done not long now xx

Ruby Rose my gorgeous granddaughter and my 2nd granddaughter in the making due in Feb ’18 both reasons to stay sane xx

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October 1st …… i’m doing it !!! STOPTOBER

Ok so I don’t smoke so can’t join that challenge but I am going to challenge myself.

For the month of October I am going sober and cleaning up.

Stop….. drinking alcohol

I don’t drink a huge amount but yes I drink most evenings and can quite easily empty a bottle of wine on my own in an evening. Looking at my social calendar there is very little booked but the 2 events that are already scheduled I will part take in just a glass or 2 on one of them and the other I will volunteer as the named driver 🙂

Stop ….binge eating

Food is another downfall I have …. if I fancy it I’ll eat it even if I don’t really need it. My eating habits run closely alongside my emotional state so if my mood is good then my food is normally a healthy choice…. but if I’m down or have emotional issues then my biggest comfort will be food. Just like many others I’m sure. For the following month I plan to tidy up what I eat … not starting any diet but stopping and thinking about what I’m eating.

Looking back at my blogs I’ve done this before and found blogging as I went a useful tool in which blogging helped me stay focused so I may pop in more often this month.

So as I empty the last drop of prosecco from the bottle I’m off to bed feeling positive for the coming month and months to follow …

BRB xx

adventures · grandparents · life changes

Running out of time ……

There’s never enough of it and I’m always running out….

Everyday seems to be a battle, despite getting up early and going to bed late …. there’s still never enough hours in the day. On a daily basis (mainly days off ) I plan the night before what I want to get done and most days I stick to it, giving me that sense of achievement at the end of the day. I try and do a mix of chores and ‘me stuff’ which then means I actually end up enjoying both.

So I shop, cook, clean and tidy to then reward myself with time in the garden (weather permitting) or with my sewing machine which is a priority at the moment with a craft fare coming up in October I need to build up my stock. I buy fabric from charity shops or at sale prices which I then turn into small bags and fabric tubs then in turn sell them to make enough money to replenish my fabric stock. Much more rewarding and healthier than taking medication to keep me sane.

So both hubbs and I have changed our jobs reducing the hours that we are out at work, this was done to start having quality time and work on our bucket list and refreshing are home enough to be able to sit back and enjoy rather that always having something that needs doing.

At the age of 50plus I’ve never owned a passport or been up in a plane … I’d like to see some of those sights I’ve only ever seen on the telly …. canals of Venice… the northern lights …. are there seas really that blue..

Like I said at the start…. time is running out and so precious …. so much I want to do …. I treasure every moment I get to spend with my granddaughter and look forward to meeting my next grandchild in February. The children are grown adults now and finding their own individual way.

So watch this space … follow my adventures …

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Here’s to a new chapter …..

Tomorrow is not only the beginning of  new week but the beginning  of new chapter.   I am starting a new job that I’ve been working towards for the last 4yrs, although a bit slow I’ve made it at last.

Way back pre.kids I had qualified as a nurse and worked in the children’s unit at the  local general hospital for nearly 5yrs and I must say I enjoyed every shift.  By this time I was about 27yrs old and ready to start my own family… along came my first born followed 22mths later by my 2nd.

This is when I gave up work to be a full time mum and through the next 20yrs that followed I moved house twice, became a single mum shortly followed after by meeting my soulmate and to stop him escaping married him.   For many years through lots of ups and downs work was a dream.

Once settled into our own home and as the children flew the nest and returned… I began to think about work again.  As I had let my registration lapse it wasn’t possible to return to working as a nurse, not that my confidence level would have allowed it, so  I started as a carer in an elderly care home.

Over the next 4yrs I progressed to senior carer in a different home then home trainer which actually helped hugely,  helping me to regain a better level of confidence academically.  In February of this year I finally received my registration  status again.

Now tomorrow I return to work in the original care home as a qualified nurse and I’m so excited.   At my stage in life I think and hope to have a good work and home life balance, with my 2nd grandchild expected in February ’18 things just couldn’t get any better.

Working alongside me and supporting me all the way has been of course my soul mate, with my change of career I have also managed to persuade him to reduce his working week so we can both enjoy and prepare for a more relaxing and enjoyable future.

Walks, nature and cheltenham pic-001

So never give up on a dream work to make it  a reality 🙂

Night night xx